Why does this have to be so hard!

Ttc for 14 months now with one miscarriage and I’m done! I’m tired of everything. I’m tired of scheduled sex, I’m tired of ovulation tests, I’m tired of wasting money on pregnancy tests, I’m tired of taking prenatal vitamins, I’m tired of checking cm and cervix position everyday, I’m tired of researching everything that could possibility help, I’m tired of seeing everyone else around me getting pregnant and then being asked when we’re going to have kids, I’m tired of being stressed out, I’m tired of not sleeping well anymore, I’m tired of my constant headaches/migraines. It shouldn’t be this hard! I love how when your growing up, it was drilled into you to be careful because you could get pregnant so easily. Well I know now that that was all just a bunch of crap they feed you. Why is it that when your married, you love each other and financially capable of bringing a baby into this world, yet it doesn’t happen. Am I being punished because we waited so long to get our life set up, because that’s what I’m starting to think. I never wanted to wait until I was 30 to start a family, but that’s just how things happened. And now, when we are ready, it’s just not happening. Life is so unfair....