I need help

Hannah • Happy 😊. 16 SINGLE💕

my Dr said I need to go to a professional and I'm scared they are gonna put me on some kind of meds and I don't think I'm ready for that I'm only 15 and I don't feel comfortable opening up to someone I don't know. I've struggled with sexual assalt and suicidal actions and crinic depression since I was 13. do you think I should open up to her or write it all down?