no one cares.

no one gives a shit or is even bothering to see how I'm doing. I'm miscarrying my second child. the first was a girl at 18wk. this one is idk at 6wk but tomorrow I'm supposed to see my beautiful barely beating heart baby and I won't. yes this is my 6th pregnancy and 5th baby but it's still my loving planned baby welcomed into a stable married home. and no I didn't tell a bunch of people for a pitty party but the ones I did all I got was well it's for the best. now I have to pretend it doesn't bother me I only knew for 2 weeks I was pregnant and now I'm not. and just go back to working 50hr a week and drinking like it's fun for me