As I set here, crying, feeling so discouraged about conceiving i know that im not alone in this battle. but I have allowed this to become too much. It's all I ever think about, one day I'm late and I automatically assume im pregnant and then im let down when i see the negative on that damn stick. My SO is on the fence about having kids so it's hard to talk to him about these feelings. I've had 2 previous miscarriages and I constantly ask myself, "Why me?" you see all these people around you having kids and it really is heart breaking that you can't have your own. I know the time will (hopefully) come and everything happens for a reason but I'm tired of waiting. I'm ready to start my life; my family. If you have actually read all this, thank you. I'm not seeking attention just soo much on my mind right now and i needed to voice it, in a way. and i do know that im not alone in this and every one of you probably ask yourselves the same questions.