Low libido or just selfish??!


So I'm dating a much older man. I don't expect strong hard errections but I do expect to feel affection. So lately I've been performing oral sex on him. He only likes oral so that's like the only sex we have. But he's picked up a habit of not reciprocating. I always suck his dick and he passes out. Doesn't even touch me. Like EVERYTIME. I was raped a long time ago so touch is very confusing to me, so I'm assuming that's why he hesitant to touch me... But it just makes me feel unattractive when he does that