I’m 14. And me and my dad have a good bond and I like being there on weekends, he buys me food for my moms but when I ask my

Mom for certain things she says she doesn’t have the money or when gets paid she’ll get it, I haven’t seen her get me a drink I asked since 2 weeks, I was assaulted when I was 11 from a 16 year old, and my dad was with me at 3 am in the e.r dealing with anti crisis and was trying o get counseling and when my dad told my mom she like freaked out, and then I try explaining to her she doesn’t understand and thinks I’m gonna cut again and oh I’ll get taken away, I’m just trying to get help and talk to someone and she never asks how I feel I like drown in my own thoughts, I think of cutting still I know I need help I just don’t know how I’m gonna tell her I wrote like a 3 page paragraph but I’m gonna sum it down, I’m miserable at her house we never do anything together, I just sit in my room, she has no WiFi for school and I’ve been trying to keep my grades at all b’s, we have like 5 dogs and 4 cats that she never really pays attention to she got a pit mix form a rescue and she isn’t people or dog friendly and keeps her in a cage all the time and I walk her to stretch her legs and she yells at me for “she’s to strong” and I’m taller then my mom and more stronger. And the cats are locked in her bedroom, no attention, just feeds them and leaves them I have my cat in that room and I get her good wet food and I let her sleep in my room, and give her attention cause she’s my cat, but why keep animals if you don’t want to do anything with them? I have 4 guinea pigs myself but I feed them hay, their guinea pig food, fruits and veggies, I let them run around. I’m a freshman and I’m tired of gong back and forth, my mom cheated on my dad because they were arguing when they could of worked it out, I’m almost a year with my boyfriend and I want to move with my dad and be able to be closer with my dad I ride bike to clear my head, and where my dad lives is a big city there’s more to do, and at my moms it’s a small town and a crappy school and I want to go to the school that my boyfriends in it’s bigger and more opportunities for friends. I want to move by the end of the year.

Opinions?

I’ve been debating this for at least a year and it drags me down I’m just looking for advice on what to say to her