Jealousy

Hope this is the right place to post this. I had a missed miscarriage in November of 2016- my 1st pregnancy- and now have been blessed with a rainbow baby boy. I know I am super lucky to have a healthy rainbow and have survived my anxiety-riddled pregnancy after loss, but I am finding that I am jealous of some of my friends that are pregnant for the first time. I am happy for them and their healthy pregnancies, but am so jealous when I see things like weekly bump shots on social media. I had that naive, giddy pregnancy for 16 weeks before my 1st loss, and I guess I feel cheated that I never got to feel that way with my rainbow pregnancy. I feel like a terrible person and wish I could just be happy for my friends!