Rant <I'm A Loser>

I'm a loser 😭😭😭😭

My husband cheated on me and Im still with him. He is changing day by day and has proven me that he loves me. I cant stop crying myself each night, I cry quietly so he wont think Im dramatic😔.

I have stand up for myself and I have felt strong those times.

I told him I will look for a job and move out of here (apartment we share with his sister & her husband)

I told him I want my own house and proceed with my career. I only made it through High School because I had 15,000$ saved but my mother passed away and I had to run with the expense. Not to mention that I had to raise my 9 year old sister but now she is grown. I was 19 at the time and now Im 27 and my sister is 18 .

I had a job interview today and I didnt go to it 😔

I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression.

I was so scared and Im a freaken loser.

I wish I had went but its too late for that.

ugghhhhh