Alone and pregnant

pregnancy is supposed to be a time when you are excited and planning all kinds of things for baby like, baby shower, 3-d ultrasound, registry, and spending time with the father. So why. Since I found out I was pregnant last August have I been by myself since. I am going to be 31 weeks tomorrow and I have been very depressed for about a month. I’m single , I do not go out, I’m not having too much complications but I have had some. I had two or three trips to the ER and not once did he show up, or ask how she is doing. He never ask about the baby at all. He caught himself trying to come back around after a month but that was for sex smh. He refused to pay me the money he owed me after we split so I had to file a small claims against him, which seems to be the only way I get him to respond. But what do I do when I’m all alone by myself with no money, dealing with a lot and this complicated pregnancy? I’m very hurt and distraught and wish someone can be with me and hold me. I want love but can’t find it😞. What do I do?