Testing

We lost our second child at 12 weeks back in September. After a lot of blood loss and an emergency D&C; all I could think about was trying again. pregnancy was and still is the only thing on my mind.

Then we found out I had CIN3 and were told to stop trying to conceive until my cervix was healthy and happy. After a colposcopy and a cone biopsy we were sent to a cancer center because our GYN was just not sure what was happening. On Jan 22 we had our appointment and she gave us the green light we were praying for.

I work at an imaging center and a friend of my is an Ultrasound Tech. She scanned my ovaries and saw three dominant follicles, happy and developing.

I had ovulation pains (I get them every month, almost like clockwork) on the 24th. Since a couple days before our appointment on the 22nd we made love almost religiously everyday.

When can I test? Is it too early? Not knowing is killing me.

I feel pregnant, just a little feeling of connection to something, just like I did with our daughter 5 years ago. I feel delusional.