I was 21 and and I got pregnant. I was not ready to be a mother I made the hardest decisions by getting an abortion since I was in the process of graduating college, and scared that I was going to disappointed my parents. I had many night mares and trouble sleeping. The hardest decisions I ever made and I would never forgive myself until now I ask God for forgiveness. My relationship ended. I was devastated and alone and cry to sleep every night. No one knew the damage and hurts that I was going through. I found out the guy I was with being cheating on me the whole time. 2 months letter I met this guy some will say I move on fast but the connection that we have was real. After seeing each other for two months i found out I was pregnant again. My boyfriend knew what I went through with my ex and the whole abortion story. He supported me and told me he is different and will always be there. I was scared and worried what if..... but that’s when I realize God gave me a second chance to not take everything for granted. I love kids so much especially for being the oldest of 6 siblings. I knew if I had an abortion again something may go wrong I would not make it or I will never be able to have kids again in the future. Me and my boyfriend had decided to continue with the pregnancy he was so happy for being a dad since this is is first at age 25. I don’t know how to tell my mom about the news so I waited until when I was showing a little bit more. Every time me and boyfriend try to go over the house to announce the news something always come up it’s either she wasn’t home or blah blah blah. When my mom hear people talking about I might be pregnant from people since they so quick to say I was pregnant because of my weight gain from a picture I posted on social media. It’s funny because I didn’t tell anyone I was pregnant except for my aunt, boyfriend mom and plus my boyfriend is very private about his life. To make the story short my mom decided to kick me out late at night at 12 am after I got out of work. Lucky for me I was able to get the memo while I was work how she find out and going crazy. So I was able to called my boyfriend and ask him to wait for me in the apartment that I live. The moment I got home she took the car key and the house key and start going off disrespecting me since she was sneaking around my messages and find out about the abortion and being pregnant again by invading my privacy. My boyfriend wanted to go and introduce himself but he thought it would of being a bad idea since it wasn’t the right moment how angry she was. In the middle of night being two months pregnant I was lifting all the heavy boxes that had my clothes and etc. I was all alone not knowing I have nowhere to go and no car for me to go to school and work and no insurance. Lucky for us his mom was very supportive to welcome us to his place we stayed there until we were able to get our own place. With all the obstacles with my mother trying to make me lose my job and wish I loose the baby or something bad to happen to me. Last year in December we was blessed and got our own place. Not only that I was able to get cover with my job insurance and blessed us with a new car. I am now 22 years old and 22 weeks pregnant being going to my OBGYN to find out my baby is healthy and will be due this June 2nd 2018. The only thing is I need to take care of myself since I suffer depression and stop stressing myself. There is a God. Next week I will be having my gender reveal with the help of co workers who have been so supported and even plan on having a baby shower since I don’t have friends except for one friend that I been close with since move down south. I have learn a lot this 2017 I should not please others especially families and do what makes me happy. This is why Psalm 91 is my favorite verse in the Bible. I pray every day that god protect and guide me where ever I go. I can’t wait to find out what I am having most importantly I am excited to be a mom even when I don’t have the support of my mother who I wish would of understand for someone who got pregnant with me at 17. But I never thought the lady that gave me birth would wish I was dead. When I was try my best to be the best daughter and big sister I can be. Some say she will come around but I don’t I could forgive her for not only threaten me but to curse my unborn baby. I don’t wish no harm on nobody but to wish that everyone could just leave my alone and let me live in peace. If you reading this please keep me and my little family in your prayers. Everyone had made mistake in life we are not perfect.