I don't even know why I'm posting right now, I'm having a really horrible no good bad week. I was manipulated and I guess hated myself enough to put myself into a position financially where I actually accepted the offer of fucking a loser asshole to clear my debt.  I did this, and I find that most times after I have sex I immediately have a herpes outbreak. This herpes originated from an asshole that said turn around I want to fuck you from behind just so he could slip that condom off without me being aware. He couldn't understand why I was so upset. Fucking asshole has ruined my life. And this was my first time to break my absence at five yrs. So anyways my rent was due yesterday and my ex-boyfriend for a week always is trying to have sex with me and I said I would Not have sex with him until he went to the health department with me, he wouldn't go to the health department and we only wanted to try to have sex with me in the dark and so we broke up, well me being desperate for both drugs and rent money so much so that I succumbed to another him. Person #2 of the week. Meanwhile I have had an outbreak. And it is painful I can't even afford medication. I'm a horrible person and you can tell