I thought We'd be parents but i guess not

I'm sad.. Im relieved.. but I'm mostly really hurt. God knows a baby wouldnt be a good idea right now since I'm barely going to start going to school as an EMT and he currently lost his job.. but for a second I really was excited thinking I had a little peanut growing inside me.. We had been trying for awhile now and each month I got my period without any luck.. This month I was late by 4 days and I was thinking about taking the test tomorrow since my periods never that late.. but unfortunately I just got it. Im sad I can't give him a baby.. I love this man and He wants a child with me.. I can't help but feel like crying.