That’s my first mistake

So I’ve realized I’ve fallen for my friends with benefits if that made sense I realizes tonight I look at him as more then a fuck buddy or friends with benefits but he doesn’t and never will not sure why I put myself through this pain knowing we will never be nothing more but I’ve come to the fact that sense I can’t have a relationship with him might as well be fuck buddys then 🤷🏼‍♀️😕