I'm in a relationship but sometimes I can't help but wonder what my ex is doing. He was my first love, and after all the years we were together, I just can't help but wonder if he's okay; if he's still on drugs. In jail? I don't care for him, I don't love him anymore, I just wonder. Please tell me I'm not alone in this. I just feel guilty wondering. Especially since I have such an amazing boyfriend who treats me better than the last ever did.