Miscarriages seariously haunt you !

I am 10 weeks and 3 days today and don't have my 1st doc appointment tillthe 16th . I had a mc last year and it was absolutely horrifying , now since I  found out this time I am freaking out at every little cramp or twinge or pelvic pain , even having some pinkish tinge colored cm is freaking  me out . I just want to get to 18 weeks already and feel it so I can stop worrying 😞😞😞 I hate this 😞😞😞