3rd natural home birth ( the other two inductive at the hospital )

After two doctor lead hospital births I knew I needed a change for our third.

Our local maternity ward is super amazing, but it's still a hospital... uncomfortable and just not my fit.

flash forward my third comes along and we choose home birth with midwives.

I m unsure what to expect, I have never let nature take it's course. Previous labors were raw and painful.

my due date comes, and goes. My midwives tell me my body Knows the way, even if I don't. There's no rush.

I cry at night. I'm tired and feel anxious. I intellectually Know things; that it will be great and my body knows, but my emotions and hormones make me feel

otherwise.

my Braxton Hicks get stronger, and I sigh and go to bed. At about 5 am I toss and turn, my pubic bone aching every few minutes. A new pregnancy symptom for the week??

I wake my husband at 6:30 and tell him I can't get comfortable. Please keep me company while I lay in the tub.

But then I can't talk through the pubic bone throbs. I feel a rush of soothing oxytocin in-between the throbs. Amazing body I have, I think to myself.

I still felt skeptical... the throbs were so close together? My midwife comes and we chat casually between the discomfort. I feel fantastic.

I ask her to check me at 8:10, is this labor, or am I having a non related ache??

To my disbelief she says I'm complete.

the next to throbs are intense, but those hormones leave me blissful in between.

I get on my bed and push.

like a mad woman.

I'm in charge.

At 8:17 she's in my arms screaming

we did it