Afraid to look?!

I've heard of the pee on a stick addict and do not put myself in that category...I'm the exact opposite. I test for ovulation and only after AF is late. Even with ovulation tests I'm afraid to look at the results! I test, walk away and literally wait until the last minute to go back and look. The ovulation tests are positive when they should be but so far all BFN on the hpt's. It's like I can still be hopeful before I look. Anyone else feel this way?!