not proud

im 14 and have MANY lgbt+ friends who are really open about it to the point where it defines them as a person. im pansexual and i dont really like to tell people, i’m not very proud of it. it’s not that i don’t like lgbt+ or that i don’t want to be, i just don’t feel comfortable flaunting it, i don’t let it be a thing that defines me (less than ten people know, and i was extremely hesitant to tell all of them, even my bestfriend) is that normal? to not be ‘proud’ of your sexuality?