For the daughter I feel I let down.

The hardest decision I ever made was giving up my second daughter for adoption but I know she will have the best this way. A little background about my adoption story I'm 26 and I was married for 3 years shortly after we got married I found out I was pregnant with my first. When she was born her father completely changed and started staying out all of the time and we pretty much didn't exist to him. He finally left and didn't have anything to do with us. Last year he wanted me to let him move in with me and make up and when I wouldn't he fought for joint custody because he said he wasn't going to pay child support. As I started the custody stuff times without my daughter became very rough so I thought maybe me and him could be okay and so I could see her more I tried to fix things but it didn't work he was violent and just left again but this time I was pregnant again. I was so lost and scared and I just didn't want anything else with this man. this baby wasn't going to have a father and mother like normal and it killed me i felt I already let my first down. Once this baby was born I found her an amazing family but I still every day fear that I'm just the worst mother ever to be able to give up my second daughter.