Something for TTC'ers needing something to preoccupy their mind for a bit! ☕️🍒😍😂

So i lost my vcard to my current bf at 18 were now about to be 23(me)24.. sex was great and still is however back then i was young and i didnt have hormonal issues so my libido was high! I use to have ewcm and didnt know nothing about how good it was when ttc.

Periods were regular, we started having sex! When i lost my virginity i was in my room home "alone" so i thought my little 14yr old brother was in his room and didnt know till afterwards..so anyways i told my mom i was cramping really bad! OH SHIT REWIND...

lol i forgot a part of the story we will come back to that..so i was 18 just getting over a middle school relationship that followed me to my junior year! When senior year came we were moving into a house my mom and her fiance had built.

Ofc i was like i want to walk around view the neighborhood! Cause all we seen were kids and strollers. I went to the community center every morning to the gym..worked out for about an 1hr i was so in shape then 165..there was men playing 🏀 i would watch through the window mind im still a virgin..then a few teen boys were in the pool so i walked around out there and thats when i met a few boys lol one flirted with me till i rejected him and others after time went by of us staying there just knew i was a virgin and was out to get me lol but i rejected cause i found out there age anyways my eyes was on the dreadhead on the basketball court! One day me and his cousin got close and we became friends i went to the gym as usual and he joined

I got a kik message "hey" so i responded who is this "Glenn older cousin heze (short for hezekiah)" so my face lit up cause ik who he was then so his cousin glen seen my face immediately asked why you cheesing i said because and showed him and he moved away from me he was pissed. So i asked heze to come to the gym..and he did..we sat there talking never once did he bring up sexual stuff during our first week talking but me i was hot because unlike my ex who i hated never let fuck..

i felt sexually attracted to heze i would sit on his lap when we were alone at the community center..and he would say get up thats not right..id say why hed say you not ready for all that and then switch subjects lol..

so a week later he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yes! We broke up a good two times over stupid stuff but then he pulled up and took me for icecream and we would go sit and eat then he took me home before dark and we walked back to my house i was only 6 houses away and we had our first kiss..

he told me your going to be my wife one day and ive been watching you since the day you went to the gym that first time..my cousin would tell me he wanted you and i told him he doesnt have much time left..then thats when i stepped in..ik you were the one for me and i mean that on everything..so back to where we left off ! FAST FOWARD..

were in my room watching the movie tv loud and i looked over at him and said im ready he said no you not then layed my head on his chest i said yes i am and he said you sure and i said yes he laughed and said you not ready i said yes i amm and then he said okayy and grabbed his wallet and pulled out a condom he told me to put it on him and i said no idk how lol and i laid there i didnt take my bra off but i took off everything else i was insecure about those boobs they were DDD and huge aureolas i hated them but he didnt mind he was asking me to but i said no and he was okay with that.. he then leaned down and started to insert his dick in my vagina and i looked up at him like wtffffffffff i instantly grabbed him diggin so deep into his skin he started moaning cause i was tight asf and he finally got in there and it was so tender i was squirming and he looked down i looked down confused thought hed pop my 🍒 it felt like he did shit but no blood so we kept going then i got on top biggest mistake jumped off and i laid back down he whispered i got this just relax! I fell 😍...

weeks went by months years and hes still my first love weve been through HELLA shit together! now were in our 20s having fertility struggles..we have cars he has a truck ford f150 recent one and we have a place good jobs.. but the one thing we need to complete us isnt happening and i now have Pcos im not my weight that i was i gained weight but you can barely tell only a little ill post a pic..185 was my last weight in 2015 im not 205.. im on metformin because i need help losing weight and my insulin resistance sucks.. i dont have cyst my cycles have become regular within a year naturally but the metformin i guess helps with that too but i was just diagnosed decmeber..doctor says if it doesnt happen before my next appt in 3 months hes going to prescribe me clomid.. also wants my bf to do a semen analysis! Im just hurting guys but i needed to take my mind off it for awhile.. so i told a little bit of my story! Had to take my mind off it for a few! Im going insane