Ready to fold 😭

I’m so ready to stop my journey of ttc my hubby and i been trying for 8 months!!! I don’t know what else to do! I chart i temp i do everything possible! This month i didn’t chart i just want to relax from charting and all that! But i still find myself checking my apps on my phone! I broke down yesterday in the shower crying!!!! I talk with my hubby about it often but i just don’t think he understands because it’s my body and how hard I’m trying!!!! He’s so patient and willing to do whatever! I love him for that ... all we want is a baby healthy baby 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😘🤷🏽‍♀️😭