Feeling sad tonight... 🐶

My sweet furbaby of 16 years passed away on Jan 6th of this year. She kept having seizures and lost control of her legs. It literally killed me inside, ripped out my heart, to put her to sleep. I'm sad tonight because I just realized that my due date is only 4 days past the 1st anniversary of my sweet puppy's death date. I can't imagine celebrating anything on that day if my child is born on it. I know to some people she is 'just a dog' but she was there for me through some really tough times and was my first baby. I am normally ok to talk about it but tonight the wounds feel as fresh as they did on the day that I put her to sleep. Praying that I can find peace in my dreams tonight 😢