Not sexy...

I wish I looked good enough to put on lingerie and feel sexy in it. Being 300 pounds just isn't gonna look good in lingerie though. Hell I can't even turn my husband on anyway. I do all the things he use to like and all kinds of new things and he still doesn't get hard, or goes soft half way through, but most of the time just has no interest in me. He has never once in our 6 years together initiated anything sexual. It has always been me starting things. Maybe he just doesn't want me anymore or doesn't find me attractive anymore....