Beyond Frustrated

Well ladies I'm 12 days late and every hpt has been negative when to dr for a blood test it came back negative. i have tested at least 5 times, all the same result negative. I have some pregnancy symptoms like increased appetite and cramps but nothing more. By now I am just fed up with this ruse of being pregnant. Am I wrong? I feel like its never going to happen especially now that I'm older. I had my first at 19. It was so much easier then. I never knew the effort and the toll that getting pregnant takes. Ladies please lend me a kind word to boost my spirits..

signed

impatiently waiting.