Silly Boy 🙄

Okay so I’m really bloody stuck on what to do! Even though I don’t really think there is much I can do... So I dated this guy 3 years ago but broke it off because we were both so young and a relationship isn’t what I wanted at the time! Anyway, we have both alwaaaays had such a strong connection and have always had feelings for each other! Anyway, he got a new girlfriend and they have been dating for like a year and a half and she has never ever liked me, even though this guy and I never talked or anything! Anyway, at a recent festival I was at, I got a random text from him asking if I was there! Met up with him and literally every single little feeling I had came back... we kissed (which I know is wrong) but honestly I have never been so caught up in one moment and you could tell neither had he.. anyway we kept talking and we met up about 3 weeks later to see where we were both at! He was telling me how his Gf was frustrating him, that they almost broke up that weekend and that his feelings for me have been stronger than his feelings for her... because at the time I was planning to move away, I left it up to him to decide what to do.. but I am telling you, I have never ever felt so loved, warm and at home just by the way someone looks at me.. and he even said the same thing. Anyway we carried on talking and then next thing led to another and he chose his Girlfriend... but he was saying he hopes one day soon him and I will get our shot and stuff like that! I text him to ask how his week was going and he told me he was super stressed because him and his girlfriend were fighting every second day.. he chose her only because he has done a lot for him and he doesn’t want to hurt her, but if you saw him, he looks so drained and unhappy... I fucking love this guy and I miss him like crazy... what can I do 😭☹️ (btw I know how bad this is because he has a girlfriend so don’t hate! I know I’m not the only one that’s ever been in a situation similar to this)