Finding out you’re husband cheated and got her pregnant same time as you...

I wish no one else in the world would go through what I’am. My husband and I suffered of infertility for 9 years. We had a really early miscarriage in April 2017 things got somewhat bad between we distance ourselves from each other didn’t know to control it. We both acted tough around each other when in reality it was killing us. I was thinking of divorce because I didn’t want to hurt him and wanted him to be happy and make a family. But then I build strength out of our love, the more distant we got the more I tried to conceive, maybe it was wrong of me to do so. But Im glad I did. We are finally expecting our lil miracle in May. But through sometime into my pregnancy I build this 6th sense so bad, I started having this crazy jealousy, sadness feelings. One day he didn’t answer my phone calls I knew I was pretty sure he wasn’t at work anymore. So I deactivated his gos on his car. So then I saw his car was located near an hotel, I was having my doubts I was like no it can’t be there he probably parked at the liquor store next to it just passing by at the moment. Refreshing it location wouldn’t changed. So I drove myself there. And sure enough his car was inside of that hotel location so I stayed inside his car waiting for him. 1 hr later they come out. My heart dropped, but yet I couldn’t cry of of the anger I had within me, but I sure wanted to beat both they’re asses. She rushed to her car stayed outside. My husband grabbed so hard against his arms with guilt in his face and sadness in his eyes. His eyes got really watery, he was pulling me back begging me we needed to talk I told him 100 times I had nothing to talk to him about. I had seen enough. He opened the door to his car trying to put me inside begging me to go inside I let all my anger out towards him, I had never thought I would ever put my hands on him like that. He swears I almost popped a vein from his eye 🤷🏻‍♀️ I wish I would of cracked his skull and maybe and explore wtf was he thinking. So minutes later he pulled me to where my car was. And he confessed he had a onetime affair with her and ended up pregnant, even we knew that relationship started of by somewhere before a one time sex so it doesn’t make a difference to me... So when that came out of his mouth my heart broke down I balled in tears my heart ache like never before. He was crying, he said he couldn’t be sorry cause he knew what he was doing but he let his hormones get to him and our bad moment with in the relationship made him and not re think. It’s sad to know he didn’t think about our marriage or me. So turns out we’re only 2 weeks difference from our due date. Her due date is only 2 days away from our anniversary. Idk if I did the mistake to stay by his side. I know I love him, and he’s shown more attention and time towards our marriage he only sees this girl 1-2 a week. He says he never promised her anything for the future and he knows he won’t make a future with her. He wouldn’t trust after getting involved with him while being married, it gets me mad how he can judge her but not realize that he was the one who fucked up by opening the doors for her. Women like that don’t care, and that sad part is she already has two daughters. I hope she prays her daughters never pay for what she did. Idk where our future may lead to now. At the beginning we had only agree he was going to stay with us was to live the pregnancy how we always wanted to do so. But one talk after another we agreed we would try for our marriage. One thing I do know if he keeps seeing this other women after the baby’s arrivals as a woman, it’s definitely something Im not working with.

I pray & Desire that no other woman shall not live this.

🚨 More to the story for you’re questions. Yes he sees her to bond with the pregnancy, and he doesn’t go with her to doctors appointment, he only went for the gender appointment, he goes to all of ours though. And I totally understand why he needs or wants to see her, unfortunately she’s carrying his child, maybe I don’t feel anything bad towards this child because I know now the feeling to expect a blessing, he didn’t have his father in his life so I see where he’s coming from. I truly believe god works his way. Before all of this my ex boyfriend was trying to reconnect with me I pushed away. After finding this out, I gave in into his insistence. Not for bad but I needed to get this out no one-knows what Im currently going through. So when we finally reconnected, he told me what was going on with him, & I saw the pain within this guy, and he’s those tough no showing feeling guys, so the opposite as my husbands. So when he was telling me he had got a girl pregnant and didn’t live the pregnancy with her and was having a hard time seeing the baby, I truly believed god put him once again in my life to maybe see, if I was to ask my husband to stay away from her and that baby I realize how much pain I will cause the baby and himself. I could never do that. I saw it more as it sign. We’re so willing to work it out, and he talks alot about our future together, and how much our baby means the world to him, especially it’s a crazy connection they have, she’s daddy’s lil princess. I believe our marriage deserves another chance he’s a great husband despising how he fucked up. And I believe my daughters arrival to my womb was definitely my strength. Because god nows as much as he does if it was because of how much I love him and our miracle he would had been out my life.