Urges for a woman

Any other females ever get an urge to want to be with a girl but you’re 100% straight??😫😫 I love guys but wouldn’t date a female,just want to feel on boobs and have her ride my face! 😬 I have no idea where to find someone and can’t ask my friends 😟. My bf isn’t into girl on girl stuff (he’ll watch lesbian porn but doesn’t want his gf into that stuff) . I am very picky and a neat/clean freak,can’t be with just any girl !