Losing hope

I'm 25 going on 26 next month. A little over a year ago I found out I have PCOS. It's a struggle everyday thinking I might never get pregnant but I've been trying since last November. So, 8 months now. I feel I've come to a point where I have to come to terms with never being a mother. It hurts so much seeing girls my age going on baby #3 or girls that don't appreciate what they have. My old childhood friend has 2 kids and I found out she has been in jail for the past 3 months for heroin charges. How is it possible that she was blessed and someone like me who rarely drinks, & has never touched drugs or cigarettes will possibly never be able to conceive? It makes me question everything. I feel like giving up and maybe it's too soon to give up but is it worth it to be so upset every month when I find out I'm still not pregnant? I'm sick of the negative tests. :(