what if i cant get past this 😒


my beautiful baby girl arrived a few days early on feb. 3rd. her dad was away for a family emergency and arrived back that afternoon to find out she had been born in the morning. he was supposed to come home the 1st and came the 3rd instead even after i told him i dont think he should that i did t think she was going to wait. but since i was due the 8th he did the 3rd anyway. im having such a hard time with it and idk if its just me being emotional or if theres more to it but i cant let it go. he was suppossed to be there and would have been if he listened to me. what if i cant get past it? im scared i wont be able to forgive him or myself for not pushing harder for him to come the 1st 😒😒