not expecting

to be expecting. this is the first month I'm not convinced I'll be pregnant. something about 5 bfn back to back when you did everything right that just knocks the excitement out of you. I know God is good and that I will conceive! just saying so many times of anticipation being bashed was hard. after this cycle im on to the fertility specialist since 6 months will have passed and over 35. maybe I will be pregnant this cycle since not counting on it at all! I hope :)