My life has already been a mess and sometimes I feel like giving up.

I’m 23 with a 16 month old son and 11w5d with my 2nd child

My husband has already filed for divorce but wants to remain as a couple . He recently assaulted me and was arrested . Me & my son flew back home to be with family. It’s only been 24 hours and my mom is trying to convince me to get rid of my 2nd child. I’ve told her before i don’t want to and now that I’m home that’s all she wants to talk about . I can’t see myself doing that and I’m not giving up on my 2nd child because my marriage didn’t work . I really miss him and wish I could be in his arms again. I feel so weak when it comes to him . I’ve never loved anyone the way I love him & I just wish I had the Old guy back . The one I fell in love with . Not this monster that resembles his father. The more my mom pushes me to abortion the more I want to go back to Kansas to be with him 😓💔