Don’t get me wrong. I do It and have for the last 8months. Buuuuut. I can’t wait til that 12month mark so I can stop. For all you women who say “breastfeeding is a beautiful experience”. Props to you. Honestly. I love your enthusiasm. Breastfeeding for me is anything but beautiful. It’s exhausting, time consuming, messy, and even painful at times when my breasts are engorged. I know I shouldn’t be winging! I’m lucky to have had the opportunity and chance to nourish my child with my abundant supply of breastmilk., but breastfeeding is hard work. Having a child constantly attached to my breast is hard work (especially when I need to get other things done.) Being unable to have a break because my son refuses a bottle and won’t sleep unless he is fed by breast to sleep.. Is hard work.!! I know it’s terrible to want to stop and I do feel guilt. But I can’t wait to stop! I can’t wait till he is old enough to not need it anymore. Bonding with my baby has been beautiful an all. And seeing him thrive (until 6 months when I introduced solids) on breastmilk alone has been incredibly rewarding. But no one told me that there was such thing as an ‘oversupply’ before I had him. I always heard about ladies not producing enough. And I don’t want to seem ungrateful, But having a oversupply can be quite annoying with the milk stains on my sheets, leaking through breastpads, constantly smelling and of milk and spraying my poor baby in the face every time he feeds. Uggh. Obviously I’m going to continue... (I would be stupid to stop while my body is doing such a good job producing.) But BRING ON the 12 month mark. Haha. Except it’s quite the catch 22 because I don’t want him to grow any faster. It feels like just yesterday he was just a tiny newborn. I just want to stop feeling like a human milk vending machine.