Just having a really hard time today. I feel like i need to get outside but fear the risk of seeing someone who is where i am suppose to be. I dont want to break down in public but i cant keep shutting the world out, things like facebook and pintrest are not helping. I just feel stuck, like time has stopped for me at this one horrible moment where i cant have my baby and i cant even think about another. Cant be intimate with my husband. Hugging my daughter(9yrs) hurts because i know she hurts too.

Just what am i suppose to be doing right now other than waiting for the day that we can try again? Feel so wasted