How do you move forward every day, knowing that any day will be the last day you carry your child within you. How do you not let that fear consume your mind every day. Especially when you know there is a strong chance that when that day happens, it won’t end with happy ending everyone else can expect. That your ending may not be fine.

How do you move forward. Because I’m scared. I want to stay here forever. I want to carry him in this moment forever. And not move forward. I want to pause this moment forever. Because now is the last time I can guarantee I have him. Tomorrow is never a given.

How do you move forward.