So I am 28 yrs old. A bit of back story, I have suffered for a long time with self image and the way I looked. I was always a bigger child. As I got older and dropped the lbs and had more attention the fears of Weight gain set in. My mom always was concerned because I would pick on how other ppl would over eat. I was never sent to treatment or anything but she knew I had a problem when I passed out in the kitchen from not eating enough. I had always gone back and forth with food. I would eat, then I would become depressed and starve myself, depending on the situation going on in my life.

Now I have been trying to keep it under control by exercising regularly and eating lots of fruit and veggies, lean meat. However, I have been feeling it taking over again. I have not been eating anything. For example today just so my husband saw me eat I had an Apple w/ peanut butter. 2 days ago we took my son out to eat for his good report card. I took no more than 5 bites of my tia salad I wanted I wanted to vomit. I couldn’t handle the idea the amount of food the was on my plate. Overall right now I would say I have been consuming at least 500 or kcal a day . Just so my family knows I have ate something and with what I forced my self. Right now I am 5 ft 8in at 138 lbs 21 % body fat and a size 0/1

I am obsessed with lowering my numbers

I do have a counselor that I have been swing for a year now that I will talking to on Monday.