Help?

So lately I’ve just been feeling just this overwhelming droop and I just feel depressed and like there’s nothing to wake up for right now. I haven’t self harmed in a longgg time now but I’m just feeling these urges to and I don’t know who to talk to in my life about this because no one wants to hear it. It’s all just making me anxious because I don’t want to be depressed again because last time it was just too much. I don’t know if it’s because I’m lonely or something else. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to fight loneliness or just quiet the urges or anything? Literally anything I’ll take it