I’m 23 and I recently just moved to a new city after graduating from college. For the first time ever I’m putting a honest effort into dating (mostly through bumble and hinge).

I feel like it’s worth mentioning that I deal a lot of self-image issues around my size. While I’m not small (5’8” and size 12) In my head I see myself a lot larger and sometimes undesirable. On top of just general social anxiety and heavy need to be accepted.

I’ve gone on maybe 10 firsts dates in my first 5 months in my city, and every-time it doesn’t work out, whether bc I break it off or they do, I just feel like if I was maybe 30 pounds lighter, was less awkward, was more funny, then things would go better.

I think also since I am dating through apps and I feel like I do a decent job with my makeup, most guys are attracted to my face and then clearly there must be something about me in person that doesn’t hit the mark.

I’m fully aware this is 100% a pity-fest I’m throwing for myself, but I feel like this is the only place I could share w/o judgment. As dating just fucking sucks.

That’s it. I’m done. Lol sorry if u made it this far.