Stretch and sweep

I seriously have no idea how to pull myself together. I'm on the verge of a panic attack every time I think about my due date. I'm 38+3 and they offered a stretch and sweep on the 16th. I know it doesnt necessarily mean it's going to work but I don't even know if I can agree to get it down. I'm so scared and not ready for this ): i though by 9 months I would be ready but I can't do this ): I'm so scared about everything. I feel so trapped and anxious. I can't stop crying 😭😭😭