so embarrassed

Y'all I'm terrible at riding dick I tried to the other day cuz he said he was tired but I could get dick if I put in the work and I was liek betttt. But I tried to put it inside me and nothing would happen and he looked disappointed and got up and fucked me doggy style. I wanted to please him but I hate seeming like I'm lazy but I legit can't put it in and he won't help me when I'm on top.