I’m done!

We’ve been trying to conceive for a long time now. We had a failed IVF and the doctor said it would take more than a miracle for me to get pregnant on my own, because my fallopian tubes are partly blocked. I’ve prayed, I’ve cried, I’ve been depressed and I just can’t keep doing this to myself anymore. I know that I should have faith and I try to stay hopeful, but what if it’s not in God’s plan even though I desire to be a mom again. He has already blessed me with a 15 year old and yes I’m blessed, but my heart yearns for a little one. I sometimes daydream about how I would tell my husband if pregnant and so forth, but I need to start the healing process and accept it😔