giving up

my fertile window is almost up and my husband is just peacefully snoring next to me. no intimacy during the window at all. im getting up there in age and he says im just being impatient while he continues his bad habits and says if it doesnt happen then thats fine too ☹. we tried...well i did for 2 years now with one miscarriage. almost everyone around me has several kids,pregnant, or has newborns. ive shut my self off from almost everybody bc of it. getting depressed. all ive wanted to be is a mom. how do you not give up and i just feel so hopeless. im out this month before its even over ☹😭