Yalllll 😭

Here’s a little back story. My husband and I have been together 3 years and married for 6 months. He’s Always been my best friend. He’s military so hard enough as it is. But anyway, everything used to be so good until a couple months ago. We can’t talk without arguing.. ever and I always end up in tears because when I get out what I need to, he makes me feel like it’s all my fault. Everything that I bring up that I want to talk about as in how I’m feeling, how our relationship has changed, and asking why he’s always in a bad mood, I get yelled at and told that I need to change and I’m being a bitch. We used to always talk about getting pregnant and wanting kids. I could tell you how many times he has prayed for me to get pregnant and the other day I asked about having a baby and he told me he didn’t want kids. 😭😭😭 wtfff? My birthday was in feb 8th and he was in the field, he FaceTimed me and at the end of the phone call I got, “oh yeah happy birthday”. He came home the next day and I figured we would go out and do something but I was wrong. He wanted alone time. 😭 we also had a huge fight the week he was gone so I recommended marriage counseling and he was all for it while he was in the field and now when I mention it he rolls his eyes at me. Valentine’s Day came along and I got him a gift and wrote him a handwritten note on why I loved him and I got thanks for the chocolate. I didn’t get anything (not that I expect it) not even an I love you. For the past 2 weeks it has gotten worse to the point that last week he told me to get my things and go back to my hometown because he needed to clear his head. Every time we fight I end up in tears and he calls me a cry baby/pussy and I need to toughen up. He hasn’t been coming home until 8-9pm. He’s been going to the gym with one of his guy friend (after 3 weeks ago we were supposed to go together as a couple) but this guy friend is a whore literally. He hides his phone from me and anytime I grab it he fights me for it. He doesn’t kiss me, he doesn’t tell me he loves me unless I make the first move but always wants to have sex. I have anxiety and depression and i literally feel like my heart is getting ripped out. Ladies please tell me I’m not crazy. What is going on? I don’t know what else to do.