Chakras OUT

I’m going to try something different this month. I’m in month number two of TTC and to be honest, there is ABSOLUTELY no reason why it shouldn’t have happened last month.

I was heading to my massage last week and my best friend told me to have my lady check my fertility chakra and help me be a bit more fertile with all the energy stuff. I’ve never had anyone do anything like that before. I won’t say I’m not a believer, I just never experienced something like that. Well I thought it couldn’t hurt and since I had a random reading a few weeks ago by a friend of my moms who was TOTALLY spot on...I’m definitely a believer now.

So I mentioned it to my massage therapist and she said absolutely she would check it! And then decided to just check all of my chakras.

Well low and behold, there were only 2 that were out. She says to me, “ are you in your head about trying to get pregnant? Like are you thinking too much and too hard about it?”

Wtf. Yes absolutely. Testing like crazy, addicted to this damn app, just constantly worried it won’t happen and wanting it soooo badly.

So she did whatever she did and fixed me. I asked her check me again today since I’m fertile starting tomorrow and my SO and I are leaving for a weekend in San Francisco.

So she came over this morning and checked me again. The same two were out. She told me I seriously needed to relax. It would happen soon and my body is ready, but the energy in my mind is blocking the fertility energy. My best friend happened to be sitting in the room with me as she’s doing this all and witnessed everything that happened. She told me what she was doing when she held the pendulum over my head and how it just completely stopped moving. Then after my lady did her stuff, she went to check me again...the pendulum was still, then it started to move one way but then it started to go the other, which means it was still out. It was trying to do the right thing but I still wasn’t giving off the right energy. So she did her stuff on me again and it worked.

Sooooo...with ALL of that being said, I need to stop. I’m going to stop testing, I’m going to stop checking my cervix, checking my bbt. Just stop. I may make a note of my CM, but other than that, I’m going to just leave it be. It will happen when it’s supposed to happen. I’m going to stop making sex a chore. I’m going to have fun and enjoy my SO without the pressure of TTC. I’m going to have a discussion with him about it as well and tell him we just need to have sex, and a lot of it.

WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS! If it’s meant to be, it’ll be. It WILL happen when it’s supposed to.

Wish me luck! I’m gonna be MIA for awhile on here. Good luck and baby dust to everyone!