Stupid Decision

Okay, I did a stupid thing. Back in June I slept with someone and then contracted gonorrhea from him. I have been tested about four or five times since then and I’m clean. So on Tuesday night, he said he wanted to talk so he came over and we ended up sleeping together once again. I am angry with myself and I’m afraid that he might be lying to me about his health status. This has induced panic attacks and I’m so afraid. I made an appointment with my doctor to get tested and have talked to two of my close friends and they said that mistakes happen. But how can I stop feeling so panicked? Help 😓