We’ve only been trying since June, but the heartbreak of AF showing up each month is getting so hard to bear, I don’t know if I can keep doing it. Trying not to cry in public every time I see a baby or pregnant woman is so tough. My husband tries to comfort me by saying, “Don’t worry, it’ll happen.” but it only makes me cry more and sometimes drives a wedge between us. I don’t feel like he’s taking this seriously and it hurts so much. I honestly had a good feeling about this month, but I’m pretty sure it’s just another month of a BFN. I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I’m so broken and hurt and don’t know what to do. Our wedding anniversary is coming up at the end of March, and I was so hoping we’d have a baby, or at least expecting one by now. I sometimes think about just ending my life so I don’t have to deal with this anymore, but I know if I do that I’ll never experience being a mommy.