Have never been in a relationship

The topic says it all. I have never been in a relationship. Never been asked out, and I have never confessed my feelings to a boy before. It probably has something to do with the fact that I’m so tongue tied around boys, so much so that I can barely think. I always end up looking stupid, doing stupid things and ugh! I feel so insecure! My crush probably notices me, but in bad way 😫😩

Now I almost dread being around boys, because, I can’t even be myself around them. And, well...it’s mortifying. 🤭😳 I cant even explain it that well.