This is one of the hardest things I ever had to do and I never thought this day would ever come...our marriage is falling apart after 8 months🤦 and we are toxic towards eachother,we together for 4 years.

2 years into our relationship problems arised we both just chose to ignore it because it's so hard to let go!!(the Eminem and rihanna love the way you lie sort of relationship) Got married in a courtroom💕we thought it would get better but it's just getting worse...now we paying for it.

I won't get into it but iv never been so sure in my life,to be honest iv been "sure" a couple of times!! My husband is not abusive and absolutely adores me.But it's me with the problem I hate who I am when I'm with him or around him and he won't accept that I want to be done! anything I do he forgives me

(this is him)👇

but I just don't love him the way I used to and im not who I used to be😭she is long gone!! I don't want marriage counseling I just want an out I can't help it's just how I feel💔

but it's more complicated than that...

reason why I'm saying after the baby is born in April is because we have a lease and it will give me some time to get my old room in a good condition at my dad's place...

**I'm texting him because when I tell him how I feel about something/anything to do with leaving him in person he kisses me and ask me if it's really what I want,starts undressing me asking me why i don't want him anymore etc etc he makes it so hard for me AND I end up having sex with him out of sympathy

(him again👇)

**Im sorry😭 iv never been through something like this before I had a mother who passed away recently and she and my dad never got a divorce no matter how much he cheated or hit her and they got better over the years**

**My older sister the same,she is miserable in her marriage but will rather stay and "work on it" than to do what's best for her and her son!**

But...

What do I do😭

**Update ladies** I took most of your advice,yes I'm young and I realised that maybe I have adjusting issues...I looked at him for the the first time today like really looked at him! this man adores me and smiles ear to ear when he sees me! I want to be a better wife and love him the way he deserves so I'm going to do what's best for our marriage and make good decisions I guess Im just feeling the pressure with motherhood coming along as well...hormones might be part of why I'm feeling this way,but it is no excuse that is why I never assumed it was hormones to begin with 🤷 after all I have the day we met imprinted on my body❤️ a reminder of why we started

We will make it work💕

Thanks again for the advice xx