I need help

I’m 14w&3d and at this point I’m not happy about being pregnant .23 & My husband left me two weeks after we found out about our 2nd child and filed for divorce a week later. We got into a physical altercation the 10th of February and I haven’t heard from him since. His lawyer sent me Papers saying I fled he state of Kansas and my husband wants custody of our son (17months). Again I haven’t heard from him for almost a month . He watches my Snapchat story . When i snap him he opens them but doesn’t respond . I call no answer . I text no response . My mom keeps reminding me everyday of how hard it will be to raise two kids on my own and How my life will be easier if I get rid of this baby . I never thought about it . Until last night . I feel like a terrible person but I really just don’t know what to do. I’ve been depressed since he left and i can’t enjoy my pregnancy like I thought I would . There’s more cons to me having this baby than pros 💔😪I’m stuck . Literally stuck