When do I get excited?

Shelly
I had a miscarriage in October hardest thing I have ever been thru. Lost myself in it all even though I was barely 2 months it felt like I didn't know how to deal. I'm now 3 months doctor confirmed 4 times I'm doing good and healthy. Baby heart beat 150 right on development. But I'm so scared to get to happy and have it all taken away again.